For the last few weeks I have been feeling a strong call to write. This blog post comes after a long hiatus. I didn`t put too much thought into it, I just let it flow and wrote about what I am feeling at the moment.
During this extended period of rest I am feeling my soul and body sink into a deep relaxation…
A merger of myself with the natural rhythm of life.
I am feeling the weariness seep out from my skin and my bones and be replaced by lightness.
My task is not to pick it up again.
MEDITATING ON THE MOMENT AND WHAT I`M EXPERIENCING
I don`t know why but I am feeling compelled to write; with a pen and paper, which is different to typing.
I feel compelled to express the difficulties and challenges and complexities of life.
I feel compelled to slow down. I feel ecstatic that I CAN slow down without anyone feeling entitled to make me “go faster” or “do more things”.
For me this moment is a culmination of feelings that I have been feeling for some time now – a desire for stillness and for slowing down.
At the same time, I am noticing my internal patterns. I am paying attention to how much I consume online. I am noticing how I can very easily ingest too much information which then throws of my rhythm because I have not given myself enough time to digest and process.
Even with the information I want to share with others I have to remind myself not to jump into the fray, but to reconnect with my stillness and create from that space. I have to remember not to become uncentred and join the noise.
A GIFT I HAVE FOUND
In some ways I think nature is granting our deepest wish- the desire to slow down. The desire for less pressure.
Nature is virtually giving us exactly what we have been yearning for. I for one am thankful.
I also appreciate this time as a moment to be very deliberate about what I create in the future.
WHEN I THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE
In the future I want my life to be a lot like it is now; harmonious and synchronized.
I want my future to be rich and full.
I want it to be soulful.
I want to do things that have a feeling of quality and completeness. I do not want to be part of a production line of empty actions.
I want to be mindful not to recreate the patterns of the past that got me/us to this place. I do not want to fall back into the old patterns that lead to destruction.
I notice in myself the need to resist and re-wire old patterns. I notice in myself how as soon as I read news of any countries where the virus is gone my old patterns jump back in….the thought of “let`s get to work then”. Working is okay, but there is a point where working turns to hurriedness, and there is a further point where hurriedness turns into busy-ness, and busy-ness turns to empty unproductive action. We may need the extended quarantine to save us from ourselves and embed a new better way of living so that this new way of living becomes ingrained. If we are not quarantined for long enough we may be too quick to fall into our old ways.
WHAT`S COMING UP FOR YOU?
At the moment I really feel like connecting with my community and I am very curious to know: what have you felt during this period and what are you envisioning for the future? Comment and let me know !